learning simple things

My cousin Terra.  Well she started out as my cousin Buttzie.  We are only a couple years apart.  Growing up in a large family, small town we were only bound to end up more like sisters than best friends.  We were together all the time.  Fighting continually throughout our years.  You know, me stealing her clothes, boyfriends (well not so much, just her friends that where boys).  Her wanting to be like her big cool cousin.  We have been through a lot together.  Good and bad.  Her making me wear that ugly brides maid dress - bad.  Very Bad!
Anywhoo, I need to shorten this up.  Life goes on.  She has a beautiful son.  One she would lay down and die for as any other mother would.  He develops this rare disease (I don't even know the name of) and has had many surgeries throughout his young life. He is a whole other blog.  Amazing child.  Deals with a pain you or I couldn't imagine having everyday.  As she is wishing she could take this all away from him, she discovers she has a brain tumor.

Ok, this is where my heart expands.  This woman is going through so much, yet I was able to have dinner with her and enjoy a movie afterwards.  Easy you would think.  Yes, it was for me.  For her, not so much.  Of course, because of the med's she is not able to enjoy a glass of wine.  While she is ordering she is wondering how she can read the menu because her vision is so bad.  We enjoy dinner and head off to the movie.  The movie, where she can't sit for to long, because of the swelling in her body from the massive amounts of steroids that she is on.  Soon into the movie a hot flash comes over her.  I feel her head and she is on fire.
Here's the thing.  Through all of this.  She didn't bitch once.  Not once.  She amazes me.  I would be crying for the world to hold me.  To realize what I was going through.  Not her.  I wouldn't leave my house.  Drive - noway.  Not her.  Remember to take my 30 pills a day.  She does that.  Sit through a movie in misery trying to act like nothing is bothering her.  Not me.
I'm feeling bad because I didn't work out all week.  Because my business' stress me out.  Because the weather sucks.  Really?  Really?  Time for me to simplify my life a bit.  Time for me to be humble.
Time for me to give back what Terra gives me.  STRENGTH.  You have professional football players trying to win a game (getting paid millions), Tiger Woods trying to save his career and name brand.  Politicians trying to win your vote.  Terra is just trying to fight her battle as well as her Sons.  Not for money or fame.  None of that matters.
Thank you Terra for loving me until you hate me.  I will always love my Buttzie.

Blogging

Yes, I'm kind of new to this whole blogging idea.  Is it really worth it for me to sit down and tell you how I feel or what I think of certain things?  Do people still read blogs?  I guess I do.  I like to check out random blogs about hair and fashion.  Do's and Don'ts.  That kind of thing.
I just don't feel like I can be totally honest here, because I might just offend someone.  I might just say what I truly think and then what?  You send me hateful emails.  You face book me horrible things.  Is it really worth it to give the world to much information?  To much knowledge about ones self?  I'm an open book.  You get what you see.  I say it like I see it.  Gets me in trouble all of the time.  I guess I can't quit now.  What fun would that be?